Monday, October 25, 2010

So since casey left i have some issues i wouldlike to talk to him about.  For instance, are you ever planning on being apart of her life... like going to soccer games and picking her up from school kind of involvment. or are you planning on living in wyoming and being a long distance father???? And how long do you think it will take to get on your feet so i can ask for child support??? ( im letting him get some money saved up to get a car and a real  job before i ask so he doesn't fall behind) 
   But when ever i bring up  important things like this he automatically gets defensive.  And starts screaming at me telling me that i know why he left and i know the situation hes in.  Yes i do know why he left and i kinda know the situation hes in, but i don't understand why i can't get somesort of answer. OR why can't he just be calm and tell me he's not in the right frame of mind to talk about such an issue.  But its very hard to catch him at a good time to talk about it.  During the day hes "working" and at night hes drinking.  And i can't have a proper conversation with him if he always drunk. 
   So i end up hanging up on him and saying things ill never do or mean.  But its starting to bother me. And i really just don't want to talk to him anymore. at least not until he learns to controll his fellings for the sake of our daughter.   I don't want to send pictures or email him or ANY kind of involment with him untill he can handle the important things as well with the good.   I mean dont i deserve some respect too??? I am the  one who is taking care of our daughter and sacraficing friends, fun, work, and me time to care for her.  And thats not a  big thing for me becasue she is my life and i would do anything for her.  But what gets to me is  while im sitting at home every night..hes out drinking and partying and having a grand ole' time.  Yet still telling me that he misses her and crap.  Wouldn't you just want to work and get as much money as possible so you could come see her and be with her again if you really missed her??? 
   I don't know I just would love to be able to talk to him and know what his plan in and whats goingg through his head. So  that i could feel better.  Is that  to omuch to ask for???

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